I was reading a blog earlier about this girl who was closing hers down for good. Reason being, her boyfriend found it. That got me thinking a little. I mean, what if someone found this blog, someone I know. How would they react. They would surely react negatively. No one I know could see the positivity I hold in this. This is my safety, my comfort, the place I find girls like me that pursue the same goal and bear the same past. We all need each other. And we all need Ana/Mia. To survive in this world we call home where people lie and cheat, and the best sincerity you find is in the sun itself. I speak to you from my heart and from the bottom of my empty stomach. This life is the life I lead. Completely secret. It's the first and last thing on my mind at all times. Ana and Mia never go away. Most people I know probably haven't even ever heard of Pro Ana sites or anything like that. I wonder what they would think if they knew.
On another note, I have a ballet audition to get into this one really good school. It's this Saturday. Wish me luck, I'm so excited and nervous at the time time.
Also, I've lost 5 lbs. 15 to go until I'm at 100. Gonna buy some new clothes when I get my paycheck this Friday.
Love you all,
xxpaperdollxx
CW: 115 lbs
I'm paranoid someone will find my blog again-- because I know from the first time that one one fricking understands, despite their pathetic efforts.
ReplyDeleteYou're soo close to 100 =] Keep it up,
xo
I know what you mean. My ex found my old blog and I freaked. It was horrible. He didn't understand at all and now he uses what he learned to hurt me by calling me fat and stuff. Good motivation, but I'm not really lacking that anyway. Oh well...
ReplyDeleteI really like how we're a nice, safe community where we can actually be free. =)
Be careful and take care of your body. Don't sink too far.
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