So this is my first post and so I'm just going to give you an overview of what this blog is specifically going to be about.
First of all I want to add a disclaimer, saying that this blog is not meant to be pro or anti ana or mia or anything like that. It is only my experiences and what I am going through specifically. I have no formal medical training and the conclusions I come to are no more than educated guesses. I do not recommend doing anything I do for anyone.
If you are recovering, please don't read this. If you plan of telling me how stupid I am or selfish or whatever words you want to use, please don't read this.
If you are recovering, please don't read this. If you plan of telling me how stupid I am or selfish or whatever words you want to use, please don't read this.
Now that that's out of the way...
I go by xxpaperdollxx.
I'm 16 years old
I am 5'6''
My weight is fluctuating between 110 lbs and 120 lbs
My passion is for ballet.
Goal weight 1: 100 lbs
Goal weight 2: 95 lbs
Goal weight 3: 90 lbs
I am obsessed with counting calories. I cannot go a day without counting every calorie I've consumed that day. My thighs are huge and my arms flabby. My hands are pocketed with fat and my chin is triple layered. My stomach pouches and grows each day.
I want to be ballerina thin. Light so I can dance on my toes.
I want to thin my arms and lessen my thighs.
I want to flatten my stomach and thin my hips.
I want to show my collarbone and let my fingers lengthen to a petite elegance.
I want my flexibility to be that of a rhythmic gymnast.
I want endurance of an 8 mile runner.
I want coordination and memory.
I want to fly in the air.
I want to be pretty.
11/28/09 Sat - 325 calories
11/29/09 Sun - 439 calories
11/30/09 Mon - 672 calories
12/01/09 Tues - 207 calories
These past 4 days have been pretty good on how many calories I've had. Problem is... I haven't lost any weight. Which makes no sense. I don't understand how this is. Today I ate more than this and I'm scared to count the calories... That's why I'm fasting tomorrow (Thursday) through at least Sunday. Then Monday morning I will weigh myself. The hardest part about this won't be not eating, it'll be getting around my mom.
Wish me luck.
Congrats on the blog! If you need any help or want to make it look fancy just let me know.
ReplyDeleteIt seems pretty strange that you havent lost any weight. The amount of calories you consumed changed every day, so you body shouldn't have gone into starvation mode...
It is possible, though unlikely, that its from muscle. Have you been doing anything different in dance classes? Other then that, I really dont know. Have you been eating alot of carbs? that could be the cause. I hope your fasting goes well, and good luck on monday.
As for the ABC on new years, thats a good idea. also we should do a contest like on this blog: http://pursuingabsolutes.blogspot.com/?zx=aa48244543864664. It is so cute, I love it.
Stay strong, and welcome to the addicting world of blogging!