eat less, weigh less

I looked in the mirror this morning and I saw the bones between my breasts.  I can kind of see my ribs as well.  My hip bones are much more pronounced and my love handles are almost gone.  My collarbone is sticking out much more.  I'm also noticing that my thighs are slowly, but surely, shrinking bit by bit.  And my arms, if I keep this up, will continue to be smaller around.

At 108 lbs I can finally see my body developing into the tiny, thin, body I strive for it to be.  I lost 10 lbs in 2 weeks.  I'm under my 10-pound-fluctuating-body-weight-range.

I will continue losing weight if I can just keep this up.  And I will keep this up.  I've kept up a simple diet: eating half of everything I would usually eat, or less.  I've kept every day well under 1000 calories, usually under 700 calories.  Food is naturally becoming more and more disgusting to me.  Mostly all the bad food: cafeteria lunches (I don't want to know what they put in the steak-fingers), fried foods, anything drenched in fat or oil, or overly with sugar, sweets (although I have a big sweet tooth) I am reducing and with every bite I lower anything else I may eat, etc.  Foods like fruits (especially apples, which I can cut into pieces and eat small amounts each day), vegetables (especially cooked carrots or broccoli, and most definitely salads.  love salads.), nuts (I'm especially in love with cashews but I keep it in small portions); I am leaning more towards.  I just like them more now and the bad foods I kind of scrunch up my nose at.  I can hardly eat them even if I wanted to.  Which I don't.

We had to write a speech in Speech Class this week about a social issue/controversy.  I, ironically, did mine on Eating Disorders. I'm nervous to talk about it.  One girl has already done a speech on it but personally, I thought she was too judgmental about the topic and she just didn't get it.  She has obviously, never starved herself for any period of time.

I've found a new friend.  She's this girl in my P.E. class.  She's not really an ana-buddy, but she's the closest to it that I've found in real life.  She used to weigh a lot and she's recently lost a bunch of weight.  Now she loves exercising and eating well.  She would freak out if she knew the things I do and how far I go to lose weight but I know she cares about her appearance much like I do.  I think she's one inch shorter than me and when I told her I was 108 lbs she told me she was 106 lbs.  We both high-five'd each other.  It's kind of nice having someone else who takes pride in losing weight.

Also, I'm in love with this song: Sweetheart, You Are Sadly Mistaken by Alesana