My Beautiful, Horrible Secret

I want to tell you all that I believe in you.  And because of that, I must believe in myself.  I can do this and this time it's going to actually happen.

Current weight: 110 lbs
Goal weight: 95 lbs
Need to lose: 15 lbs

My 17th birthday is in 10 days and I am determined to lose at least 5-8 lbs by then.  That way I will be under 105 in time for birthday pictures.  I hope to be thin and beautiful in them so that I can look back and smile.

I just ordered an XS dress online.  It's the cutest dress I have ever seen and if I can fit in it for my birthday, I'll be the happiest girl alive!  I can't wait for it to come in the mail!

I have this new boyfriend.  One more person to love.  One more person to keep this from.  And that's for a fact, that he will never know.  It makes me think, I've been obsessed with losing weight for over a year now and I haven't told a soul about how truly obsessive it is.  And I plan to keep it that way.  I know that if anyone I know were to ever find out, they would be so disappointed that I kept something so huge from them.  But since they will never find out, all will be well.  This is just one of those things that no one has to know, even the closest people in your lives.

This is my beautiful, horrible secret.