losing 20 lbs and fading

Do you think people would notice if I lost weight?  If I lost 10 lbs (to 105 lbs).  Do you think people would start saying something at that point.  What about 20 lbs (to 95 lbs).  Do you think something would be mentioned?  I don't have much to say and sometimes I think I'm fading.  Disappearing before anyone's eyes.  Before and between my own eyes I sometimes see nothing.  As if the second you step in front of the mirror you see nothing of yourself.  You have vanished from the face of this Earth and the only thing that remains is blubbering, revolting fat.  Your bones haven't even surfaced to be visually appealing because the fat is covering them in blankets of thick, impenetrable overflow of flesh.  I apologize for all my complaining.  I promise that come August 23rd (when school begins) I will have made great progress.  I will do this.  I can do this.

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signed...
a fading, dull, and invisible girl.

CW: 116 lbs